Reuben's Regret

Oh, the weight of the years, the silence of the soul

Searching for the pieces, trying to feel whole

I stood in the shadow of my own mistake

Watching the bond of my brothers break

I was the firstborn, the pride of the line

But I traded my blessing for a moment of time

Oh, the tears that I cry are for Joseph today

For the guilt of my heart that won't fade away

Yes Lord, have mercy on a soul so low

Trying to heal from a debt I still owe

Oh, Reuben’s regret, a heavy, heavy sound

My birthright is missing, scattered on the ground

I’m looking for redemption, I’m searching for the light

Praying for forgiveness in the middle of the night

Glory, glory, heal this broken man

I’m trying to walk back to Your holy plan

I saw his face fading, the coat stained with red

The secrets I carried, the words left unsaid

I held back the truth when I should have been bold

Now my spirit is shivering, caught in the cold

Thank You Jesus, for grace that is wide

Even for the secrets I buried inside

I’m reaching for heaven, I’m reaching for grace

Longing to look at a brighter place

Oh, Reuben’s regret, a heavy, heavy sound

My birthright is missing, scattered on the ground

I’m looking for redemption, I’m searching for the light

Praying for forgiveness in the middle of the night

Glory, glory, heal this broken man

I’m trying to walk back to Your holy plan

Is there a path for the one who has strayed?

Is there a hope for the price that I paid?

Praise Him for mercy that covers my shame

I’m calling out softly, I’m whispering Your name

Yes Lord, let the morning bring peace to my heart

Let a brand new journey finally start

I’m letting go of the shadows of old

Trading my grief for a promise of gold

Reuben is standing, forgiven and free

Knowing the Savior is waiting for me

Amen, for the healing, the weight is removed

My purpose is found, my spirit is soothed

Oh, Reuben’s regret, a heavy, heavy sound

My birthright is missing, scattered on the ground

I’m looking for redemption, I’m searching for the light

Praying for forgiveness in the middle of the night

Glory, glory, heal this broken man

I’m trying to walk back to Your holy plan

I’m walking back home, no more regret

A love that is deeper than I can forget

Thank You Jesus, amen

I’m home again.