Enweghị Gị (Remix)

It's Endy O… yeah.

I told myself I wouldn't write this song.I told myself I'd be strong.Agwara m onwe m ka m dị ike.

But here I am.3 a.m.Rain tapping on the window like your fingers used to.Obi m na-eti eti.

This is for you.Only you.Ọ bụghị maka onye ọzọ.

It's Endy O…And I can't live without you.Biko, nụ ya.

I wake up and your name is the first thingmy tongue remembers how to sayỌnụ m na-ekwu "gị" tupu m meghee anya m

The coffee tastes like nothingbecause you're not across the tableọbụ aka gị anaghị emetụ iko m aka

I never knew a body could feel so heavyuntil yours stopped lying next to mineAkwa m tọgbọrọ n'efuỌ na-ebe ákwá n'abalị

Ị hụrụ m? — Do you see me?I'm walking through rooms and forgetting why I enteredIsi m na-awụgharịỌbụ m na-akụ ụda gị

Enweghị m ike ibi na-enweghị gị(I cannot live without you)

Not the dramatic kind of cannotNot the movies, not the screamingThe quiet kindWhere I still brush my teeth and go to work and laugh at jokesBut something inside me anwụọla — has died

Ị bụ ume m — You are my breathỊ bụ mmiri m — You are my waterỊ bụ ụzọ m si amata na m dị ndụ(You are how I know I am alive)

Echeta mgbe anyị zutere?(Do you remember when we met?)

I was a house with all the lights offỊ batara n'ime m — you entered meAnd you didn't turn on the lightsYou just sat in the dark with meUntil I realized I wasn't afraid anymore

Ị hụrụ ihe ndị gbajiri agbaji n'ime m n'anya(You loved the broken things inside me)I meghị ka m dozie ha — You didn't make me fix themỊ nọdụrụ ala n'etiti ha — You sat down among them

Now you're gone for just one dayAnd I'm standing in the kitchen holding an orangeLike it's a secret I forgot to tell you

Ọnụ m na-akpọ aha gị n'onwe ya(My mouth calls your name by itself)Aka m na-achọ aka gị — My hand searches for your handỤkwụ m na-aga ebe ị nọ — My feet go to where you are

Enweghị m ike ibi na-enweghị gị(I cannot live without you)

Not because I'll dieI'll keep breathing, I'll keep eating, I'll keep existingBut ibi — to live — ọ bụghị naanị ịdị ndụ(It is not just being alive)

Ịdị ndụ is survivalIbi is you

Ị bụ ebe m na-ezu ike — You are where I restỊ bụ ụda m na-ehi ụra — You are the sound I sleep toỊ bụ ihe kpatara m ji emeghe anya m n'ụtụtụ(You are why I open my eyes in the morning)

Biko — please — biko, egbula olu m(Please, don't hang my voice up)

If you leave, don't leave quietlyScream at me, break somethingLet me know you were hereBecause the silence na-egbu m karịa okwu ọjọọ(Kills me more than bad words)

Agwara m gị na m bụ onye nzuzu?(Did I tell you that I am a fool?)Ọ bụ gị mere m ji bụrụ onye nzuzu — You are why I became a foolMa anaghị m arịọ mgbaghara — But I am not apologizing

Enweghị m ike ibi na-enweghị gị(I cannot live without you)

I tried — God knows I triedAgbalịrị m ichefu gị — I tried to forget youAgbalịrị m ịkpọ gị asị — I tried to hate youAgbalịrị m iji onye ọzọ dochie gị — I tried to replace you

But every hand I held felt like a strangerEvery mouth that kissed meDidn't know my name the way you do

Ị ma ọbụna ihe m na-ekwu mgbe m kwụsịrị ikwu okwu?(Do you even know what I say when I stop speaking?)

So come back — Lọta — Come home

Not because I'm weakBecause you're the only strength that ever felt like rest

Ị bụ ụlọ m — You are my homeỊ bụ azịza m — You are my answerỊ bụ ihe m na-achọ n'ọhịa nke ihe ọzọ niile(You are what I'm searching for in the wilderness of everything else)

Enweghị m ike ibi na-enweghị gị(I cannot live without you)

Ọ bụghị n'ihi na m ga-anwụ — Not because I will dieKama n'ihi na na-enweghị gị, anaghị m ebi(But because without you, I do not live)Ana m anọ — I only stay

Biko, lọta — Please, come backAna m eche gị — I am waiting for youỌbụ m na-eche — My heart is waiting

(pause)

It's Endy O… yeah

(soft breath)

Ị bụ m — You are mineM bụ gị — I am yours

Ru mgbe ebighị ebi — Until forever

(Piano fades. One last breath. Silence.)